My heart

Loving someone ,

is a blessing to someones heart ,

but having you

is a blessing not in my heart

but in my whole life ,

Every second spark,

every minute past,

every hour count ,

and everyday is a blessing ,

sometimes i found myself smiling

its because your always on my mind ,

everyday is a moving day

but everyday i failed ,

a passionate touch of yours

melted the solidness of my heart ,

and a simple glimpse of your smile

can move a mountain high ,

you change my life everyday ,

sometimes a day is a mess

when i cant see your shadows behind me ,

every end of the day and knowing that you are there

changing a mess day into a beautiful mess ,

When were apart

it feels like a whole year pass,

and missing you more ,

when a glimpse of your smile

strike to my memories

it makes my heart cries ,

When i found you,

i know you are my destiny

i can feel it

my heart pumps hard and

lead to my adrenaline runs fast

knowing that my destiny

is standing in front of me ,

that moment my heart melted

because of the spark and the heat

that you bring to my heart ,

and you never failed me

you touch my heart so deeply,

and i know that my life now, is connected to my heart ,

if you will go ,

i will stop the beating of my heart ,

because you are the one who beats my heart,

Goodbye , farewell

this two words is undefined to my mind ,

i don't like this two words

it makes me sick

because i know

you will never leave me,

We promise that we will never leave each others arms,

but i failed

you left me ,

you said you're coming back

but you lied ,

even a half of shadows you

never come back

and i made a promise to myself

that you are the beating of my heart ,

and now i am like a doll ,

i cant talk , i cant smile ,

and its hard for me to breath everyday

because every breath i take

reminds me of the happiness that you bring to my life ,

Yes , im alive ,

but deep inside im dead,

and only you can

revive the unexplainable emptiness that i feel right now,

a simple touch of your's can heal my broken strings,

then you pinch me

and i realize its a dream ,

you never leave and you will never leave . . . .

Have you already watched letters to julliet ?

This afternoon

i spend my whole day with my mother ,

and we watched movies and we decided to watched

" letters to julliet "

which is the second movie that we watched this afternoon

some kind of a boring movie

but i have to watched

for the sake of my moms entertainment,

my friends always tell me to watch the movie

but i always confront them

that the movie is not great

its because i really don't like the lady on the main role

i just don't like her eyes ,

but she's beautiful i mean it ,

but this afternoon,

i have to watched it

its my mother's name,

as we started the movie

"HD copy"

which makes the movie great ,

because the movie settings is in italy,

as the story goes on

and knowing that " amanda seyfried "

is a writer on the story,

it minimize the bored that i feel for the movie ,

and finally we are at the climax of story

and story is so great,

it talks about Destiny

after 50 years , of there life

Destiny decided to let there roads

cross again ,

weird right?

how can destiny change there life?

and how can destiny bring back

the feelings that they share for almost 50 years past ,

i believe that destiny works ,

when they meet each other ,

the memories that was stuck on there minds

triggers there sleeping hearts,

there are a lot of sweet words

that can inspire you to fall in love again

in the movie ,

when christopher egan says the heavenly words

" I am madly, deeply , truly passionately in love with you"

its like a earth shaking words that you will hear,

and its very very rare to find the person,

that can tell you that heavenly praise ,

but who knows

Destiny works?

i always believe in the destiny

and it makes me more to believe after

watching the movie,

Wall

I build a strong wall
in the bottom of my heart
just to prevent me from falling in love

but i did not notice that there is somebody
climbing the wall and let me fall
but he accidentally fell to the wall.

i waited for him
for so long,
but he never climbed again.
my tears fall
when I'm reminiscing the memories
that stuck to my head and heart

i decided to fall on the wall
and hoping that he was there,
to catch me when i fall
but he was not there,
and i fell so badly that my heart cried again,

When i fell ,
there was somebody that held my hand
and helped me to stand again.
when i saw his bright face,
he was the one i waited for so long.

i told him:
"i waited for you for so long,
you never climbed again."

he replied:
"i'm scared to fall again,
i waited for a long time also
for you to come down;
and now your here,
please don't go,
please be mine..."

and my heart tumbled,
for this is the moment
I've been waiting for...

its all about love

A long and lasting love? sweet words right?
but very rare to find
why is love created?
and why do people need to fall in love?
why is it we cannot control
the words that our hearts dictate
and our hearts feel

Its very common for every individual
to feel this feeling
but why is it? there are some people
who cant survive this feeling
and lead them to kill themselves.

i ask myself?
what is the most important thing in this world?
is it love? or life?
its very complicated to answer that question
because love and life are connected to each other
and it's hard for us to choose which is more important

but i wonder why?
why do people kill themselves?
because of love
so does it mean love is more important than life?

but we cannot blame people who want to kill themselves
because of love
because the center of life is love
that is why for me,
life is nothing without love

i'm not saying that if no one will love us
we need to kill ourselves,
always think that you need to love yourself first
so if you love yourself
it means that you have love inside
and you can survive all the trials
that you will encounter in every road you take

believe in destiny
you don't have to find love
it will happen unexpectedly
no time , no place , it's unexpected.